I'm on my third and final week of fasting. I was hoping that rest would really help to heal my body, but that is not the case. I am still hurting all over. Now I am back on antibiotics, again, and I am on my fourth straight day of a migraine. BUMMER!
Even though I am not healed, yet (I still have faith), I have gained a great deal from this 21 day fast. Along with growing closer to God and learning more about myself, I have learned that my priorities are all messed up. God does not want for me to define myself as a martial-artist, He wants me to define myself as a Christian. My purpose is not to be a karate champion, it is to be a Godly woman, wife, and mother. I am supposed to be reaching out to people, working for God, not working for another medal that I can't take to heaven with me.
What does this mean for Taekwondo? I really do not know at this point. I am searching for ways that I can use my abilities to minister. I am not a great teacher, been there and failed at that. But I'd like to minister by doing demos or something. Any ideas?
I do not think God wants me to give up martial arts, but I think I need to devote less time and energy to it. Maybe my body hurting is a way for God to stop me, wake me up, get my attention. I need to take a step back and redefine myself.
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